Hey Beautiful Souls,
Lately I have been feeling like I have been way to task oriented. And on some level I might even be ok with that if I felt like those tasks were truly moving me in a direction I was meant to be, or if they were filling me/nourishing me. In many cases they are not. So I did an experiment this last weekend I resisted looking at my weekly list all weekend. Now this may not sound that profound for some, but for me it was.
You see it’s just this year that I really started keeping lists for what needed/wanted to get done each week. It’s been great in several ways, I will keep doing this. What I will not keep doing is adding to that list shoulds or tasks that come from being on Auto Pilot . I have this constant need to feel like I am being productive, even when in reality it’s often busy work. I have spent years getting ready to get started and I let planning each week become part of that. Frankly there is probably a series of posts in this very subject I could do.
Heres what all of this came down to, I had to redefine stillness for myself . I have always thought of stillness as meditation, and it is of course. But for me stillness really meant making room on some level. In my mind, in my day. If I am trying to stay “busy’ or “productive” a lot I am not really making room for the messages that my life is giving me, I am not slowing down to listen or tap into what I really want to create.
For me stillness is..
-Meditation
-Ignoring or really looking at the shoulds, slowing myself long enough to check in
-Just allowing some days or parts of days to unfold as they may…
-Creating space to really explore what needs to be nurtured in my life.
I think this year especially I have really felt like I need to make up for lost time, when we do that I think we come from a place of panic and urgency on some level. That is not a nurturing or inspiring place to come from. I am working on allowing myself to just be and to listen to what my life is really trying to tell me. In reality I think doing these things will be far more productive than the way I have been doing that.
Much to think about here for me, and it’s a journey but I think I have some insight and some tools that will help me get there and help me stay here, in this moment.
Here is to living Inspired, Creative and Empowered
Heather